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I mean this truthfully: I KNEW that would be the next thing you 'said'. And I chuckled because it most always IS the next thing you say in these experiences that you report on.
(Smile) I am not sure why you might think it would not be, dear Skals (peace to you, luv!). I mean, I haven't changed much over the years, yes? But I stated the truth, that I realized... by how the phrase was used (pursuant to the NWT transliteration), that they DIDN'T know. Should I have stated that, literally? Some might say, no. I have nothing to hide, though, including what's IN me... and so my thoughts... so I didn't leave it out. For that reason, no one has to guess what was in me on the matter.
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I, for myself, find it amusing.
I want to say I can understand that, but I don't think like most folks, so the truth is that I don't. I THINK you might find it amusing because it goes against what YOU deem "appropriate" as something to post. We live in a society, some of us, where truth is... well, not always desirable. It must be watered down, tempered, even changed... so as to be acceptable. For some, even lies are better. I personally don't find someone actually stating the truth amusing - I find it refreshing, even brave sometimes.
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I do not mean to offend.
I can see that. I hope YOU can see that I don't/didn't mean to, either. And yet...
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I just wondered, perhaps, maybe, if you were ever aware, or made aware of this dynamic in your reports, let us say, by your Lord? Meaning for example, he may utter to you : No Shelby, they understand. It is you perhaps this time, that do not.
Not exactly. He does say that to me when I don't understand something. Not necessarily that someone else understands but I don't... but just when I don't understand, regardless of what anyone else does or does not. In such cases, his words are something to the effect of "No, child, it is this way" or "Is it not this way, child?", etc. But I can't recall him ever saying, "No, child, they understand. It is you perhaps this time..., etc."
The TRUTH, though, dear Skals... is that I don't know MYSELF... until HE tells me where the error is ("You can see that they don't understand/know the truth, yes? You must/should/may tell them..."). And so I TRY to tell "them." Even in private, sometimes. That I don't use the "right" words (as such are considered in THIS world)... well, I can only apologize for that; I use what I hear/am given. I don't make it up, add to it, take away from it, etc.
Contrary to what you (and others) might think, though, I know what I don't know, dear Skals... and that is almost everything. Especially these things - I don't know ANY of them; I only now what my Lord tells me. Where I don't know... I ask. Almost always him, but depending on the matter, sometimes others. Usually, I just ask him... and as a result I don't HAVE to ask others. I realize that that might "offend" others' sense of... well, "Why doesn't she come to ME/others... ask ME/others?" thing... and I am sorry that it does.
But I marvel at any who do think that way... and think I should go to/ask others. I have openly professed that I have faith in Christ. I cannot speak for ANYONE else... but
I... MEAN that. In EVERY since of the word "faith." It is NOT merely some kind of abstract lip service for me. I have faith in HIM... and thus, in his words that, as a result of holy spirit, being taught by the anointing with holy spirit, and being led by HIM... I "do not need anyone to be teaching [me]"... because he and it "will lead me... into ALL truth." I wholeheartedly and whole-souled/spirit believe that. Without a doubt or deviation. And so I DO put trust and faith in what he tells me. My heart breaks for those who don't [have such faith/put full faith in what he says to them]... yet. It costs them SO much time, effort... and sometimes money... when they don't!
I realize, of course, that some... most... don't believe he MEANT ALL truth... but just "some" truths. Bible stuff. I have come to learn, though, that "all" truth means just that: ALL truth. Regarding ALL things. In this world AND his. That you (and some others) are unable to... mmmmmmmm... identify with, accept, agree with MY confidence in this is... what? Of no concern to me, dear one. It can't be. Else, I would become a slave led by YOU/others. Yes?
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In my observations when you say such things is that you appear to think you DO understand it all, best or better than anyone else, ever.
It appears that way to YOU, dear Skals... because that is how YOU think. Eye-ee... that it CAN'T be that such a one is merely telling the TRUTH... no, there HAS to be more to it. Why? Well, I have only recently come to understand why: because with YOU (those like you)... there IS (more to it). Always is. I had a perfect example to show me that, just 2 days ago:
I had parked my car in front of a church near the BART. After work, while we were on the train, dear hubby asked me, "Where did you park the car?" I told him: "In front of the church." When we arrived and he saw the car, he said, "Oh, wow! You DID park it right in front of the church!"
Well, I was a bit confused. I mean, that's what I had said, "in front of the church," yes? So I told him, "I don't understand. I said I parked it in front of the church. Why are you surprised?" He said, "Well, hon', sure that what's you said, but I was thinking you mean near the church, across the street from the church, on the same street as the church..." I was like, "Wha... huh?! But I didn't SAY 'near the church, across the street... etc. I said "in front of..." well, you get my drift.
And HE said, "Yes, you did. And I should have KNOWN, being it was you, that you MEANT in front of the church." He then explained to me that MOST people would take "in front of the church" AS "near the church, etc."
I am sorry, but I have GREAT difficulty understanding that. If "in front of the church" is not what they MEAN... then why not SAY what they MEAN ("near the church"). So, I ran this by some others... and apparently, MOST people DON'T say what they MEAN. Unfortunately, for ME... I don't know how to "interpret" what they mean, if they don't SAY it. And I don't know how to SAY anything OTHER than what I mean.
And so I am learning... a bit late in life, I must confess, dear Skals... that apparently MOST folks are like you in that sense: say one thing and mean another... and so have no problem when someone says one thing TO you, but mean another.
Something "you all" may overlook, though: there are some people in this world who, because of how they're hard-wired, can't really say anything BUT truth. Those consider "retarded" fall into this category. They don't have it IN them to lie. And no one take issue with them (nor should they); to the contrary, they are accommodated, if not overlooked (as they should be!)... EVEN when such "truth" would be considered offensive under different circumstances.
There are those at the other end of the spectrum, however, who may "suffer" from the same condition, one that some might even consider a "disability." These, however, are usually only accommodated by those who know and love them... or if they are recognized by "society." The rest are, well, let's say they're not received well by "society."
Most folks, however, fall somewhere in the middle... and lying is pretty much just a way of life for them. So long as no one is "hurt", it's entirely okay. The thing is, it's NOT okay with JAH and Christ. And so, one of my promises to THEM was to put deceit far away from me. Sometimes that means stating a truth that really is nothing more than truth... but others take offense to because of it BEING true. I am not sure that that's the problem of the one stating the truth... but the one who can't receive it. Know what I mean?
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And for me, it grates just a bit on my nervousations.
I know. Truth has a way of doing that to certain people. Sorry, but I'm only stating the truth. I realize that you would rather me water that down, say something like "Oh, I'm sorry, I don't mean to grate on your nervousations; I will try to do better!"... but that would not be the TRUTH - it would, IMHO, be me pandering to you, perhaps even patronizing. I mean, I didn't set OUT to grate, but I absolutely DO know that some, much, if not all of what I post will grate on SOMEONE's nerves. It's a risk I take. Fortunately, not all ARE offended - usually, those who know me are not. Indeed, they don't expect anything less from me.
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Only my observations though. Doesn't mean it is at all the case. The nerve thing though. I mean that, sincerely though.
Yes, I understand: that it doesn't mean it is the case... and your nerves thing, yes. I hope you understand that I meant what I stated sincerely, too... and that it was a realization based on an observation, as well... and that no offense was
intended, either.
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Peace to you too. I hope you understand. Perhaps not though. And that will be okay.
No, no, I DO understand, dear Skals, TRULY. I am not so sure you... and some others... understand ME, though. And I'm not sure that there's anything I can do to change that. Some might say "change yourself," but then... I wouldn't BE me any longer, would I? So, I think I'll just continue to be ME and let you and others be YOU... let those who do understand me continue to do so... and let those who don't... well, choose to continue that, if that's what they wish.
I receive your wish for peace... and send one back to you!
YOUR servant and a slave of Christ,
Shellamar, who had some time on her hands today... and doesn't really mind the eye-rolling (I can't see it, so - LOLOL!)... and so, well, you got one of my more verbose responses... sorry - LOLOL!