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CHARIKLO SAID
That all strikes several chords with me.
For a start, those elders you describe clearly had their first cousins in the local congregation here. If you weren't part of a certain family, or a pioneer, or showing some other kind of diligence or superiority, you were nothing. This extended to anyone close to the congregation but not yet quite a full member. Anyone in any way individual was doomed from the start. One young man, whom I'd known for over 25 years, was "caught" by one of the elders. This very nice, interesting, hippy-type young, gifted chap with long hair and an individual style of dress quickly had the externals wiped away from him. The hair became a short back and sides, a suit was bought, and he shaved. He did his best. But he couldn't stop his brain from working, and he couldn't get rid of the fact that he was a very accomplished artist, with drawings and colour-wash sketches that came to life within a few lines. He was highly educated, too.
Those elders scorned his artistic talents, mocked his wide vocabulary (they did that with me too) and very soon showed signs of stress. He lasted a bit longer than me, but walked the following month. He was too different. He was never going to fit.
Since my experience was very similar, without the artistic talent, but like him, with a brain, I began to wonder just what was going on. These elders were not educated. Both had become JW's in their 20's, and before that had been thorough wide boys, sailing close to the line in respect of the law. The same was true of some, not all, of the other elders. I decided that the,y didn't really want to bring in new sheep, only the ones that fitted a very restrictive mould. This same attitude extended to elders'wives, though interestingly, not necessarily the wife of an elder of that type. Other elders' wives exhibited the same traits, and if anything they were every bit as ruthless as their male counterparts. Spiteful and vindictive, too.
All of those characteristics, and others that you have identified amongst just some atheists, bear good comparison in my experience and according to my observation. The love of flinging insult, the sureness they feel with their wingmen alongside. The way they home in on a target, exhibiting the characteristics of the elders of their personality type exactly as you describe. Even in the way they refer to their own JW experience, though this is seen on only rare occasion, one is left with raised eyebrows, as it displays an attitude very far removed from that of most who have emerged from the cult.
They make their choice, and they have to live with it, and the cost to them is visible as they continue in it almost as though they are constantly struggling to convince themselves. They have to bring up their atheism at every turn, and make sure that everyone sees and they hope applauds them for "exposing the real truth".
All too familiar, isn't it?
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